I have a love hate relationship with science.

I love how it can be used to clarify matters, resolve issues and help humanity.

I hate how it can be used to control, manipulate and deceive people.

Corporations/marketers/media (and the government I’m sure) want to know everything they can about human behavior and have as much information about each and every one of us as possible. Not only to monetize and control but to have ease of access to whatever they want from us.

I don’t want to say humanity is becoming more inhumane. I refuse to believe that. I’ve had the theory since I was at least 27 that because energy can not be destroyed and good and bad are simply energies that they stand at a constant ying and yan of neverending equality. So in other words if more people are good then the bad lies stronger in the few.

Think of it as an equation. There is one cup of ice water and one cup of hot water. People must choose which to drink from but all the water must be shared between all people. It doesn’t matter if one person has 3 big sips of ice water and one person has none.

i.e. the power gets consolidated to fewer people. This theory can be easily seen by the fact that right now the top 1% of the Earth’s population have more than half the wealth.

Money is power and most definitely energy which can be used for good or bad. It doesn’t necessarily “hold a charge” so to say. Like a talisman would perhaps, some think.

I have lost complete knowledge of this thread and it isn’t making any sense. Lost my train like 5 times I think.

I need to stop assigning value to money. Yes it is necessary on this planet. But it is not inherently evil. That as studies prove it makes people act more selfish and self-centered while true doesn’t mean everyone and every case. It just means they tend to be more entitled and rude than the vast majority of not rich people.

It doesn’t mean they don’t have hearts. It means maybe they are purposely removed from life’s less sightly attrocities. This is not something I fault them for. Who does want to look at it? I would rather not have to as well. Now I recognize it does not excuse me from doing what I can to be of service in the world how, where and when I can, but it just means I want to live in some modality of safety and comfort. Who doesn’t?


Gentrification is people who want to live in safety and comfort coming into impoverished communities because they can’t afford to live elsewhere and not be under buckets of stress, if they aren’t there already. And the push back is not wanting to lose their authenticity and cultures, the affordability of them to live and enjoy life there as well. No use bringing a Michelin star restaurant to the hood if no one can afford to eat there. I guess the jobs are good…..if they actually are good.

I read an interesting story about a black guy who lived in Echo Park for 15 years and when it started gentrifying he decided to take advantage and start a coffee shop. It’s a weird juxtaposition. He was already a business owner of a high end floral shop that he says start at $200 and he says “he could not afford to buy from”. Sounds a bit suspect but ok. Overhead, supplies, employees and other stuff you’d like and need to buy…I get it.

So he and his brother go in on a coffee shop and the city makes them retrofit the entire building to electrical code and don’t ask me why it takes this guy 8 months to complete it but I get that too. It took me over 3 months to set up shop for myself and I only needed plumbing really. Losing income each month.

So he says “I didn’t want to be one of those expensive coffee shops but now we have all these loans and unforseen expenses that need to be paid”… of who else? Of yo’ back negra. And my mother has been called that both affectionately and not so affectionately so I think I can use that term ok. I do after all understand the sting of racism first hand, but hatred is hatred. I think we all, each and every one of us unfortunately, probably understand that first hand.


I need to focus on the positive. This is not that. So let’s switch gears.

Author: porngirl3

I have always enjoyed reading and writing. Maybe because I have always been on the quiet and reclusive side; which most people may not guess at first glance or if seeing me in a social setting, especially around people I am comfortable with but it’s also not something I have an issue with. I need solitude to recharge. Writing gives me the peace and time to renew that is offered to you for your enjoyment and pleasure as well. I hope. Lol

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