Someone said that to me in class yesterday. I was relaying the story of my first “haunting” experience where I was pushed or pulled or brought to this consciousness of healing. I mean yes….I had many other experiences before but this one was so poignant it simply couldn’t be ignored, but I never saw it as her dying wish before yesterday. So this was a new take on a story that still brings me a lot of emotion and sorrow.
My grandmother was dying. She was literally on her deathbed. Fortunately everyone sacrificed to have her stay home for hospice. I would come by as much as I could, which wasn’t as much as I wish I had, to sit with her. It had been at least a month she had not spoken at all to me. She was almost completely vegetative. And least of all in English. She had reverted back to her native language (Spanish) during her last year of life.
I was caressing her arm talking to her and just sitting with her. All of a sudden she sits up in bed, stares me in the eye, grabbing my hand and says “your touch heals me”. Then just as quickly she laid back down and I never saw her open her eyes again. She died a week later.
I’ve had other instances of this sort of thing, mostly with strangers. It just got to the point where I couldn’t run from it anymore. Do I believe we all have this innate ability? I absolutely do. Like the teachers said yesterday “anything one of us can do, any of us can do”. Jesus said this himself, didn’t he?
Call it what you will….love…. healing…. evoking spirit….. prayer…. energy work. It’s all basically the same thing. I am still trying to figure out how to control it better. How to be less porous. I’ll get there. Meanwhile I don’t know about doing it as a stand alone thing. Not now at least. Maybe one day.
I’m going to take a course called Laser Reiki next. I’m super excited about it. I don’t have intentions of being a Reiki Master though. I like my own groove….. I like where I’m going in life doing my own thing.
Wishing you your own sweet groove.