Today I had an awesome client. A naturopath that has worked with energy and known about these fields her entire life. Maybe to most this seems not very extraordinary, but she was a beautiful, youthful, live-out-loud 80 year old woman. Exuding vitality, healthy and very seriously, glamorously gorgeous. She was so inspiring.
I gave her a colonic. I was deeply encouraged by how she has been an avid colonics client for decades. She had a great session and at her bequest I let her be during it. I did however get the chance to work on some blockages for her granddaughter. She had some serious energetic and physical blockages; she felt very closed off to me. She is the first person I’ve ever given energy healing to that I physically felt rejecting it.
So I can’t say how effective it was but I tried and the intention was there and the rest I leave to God. Maybe had I had more time to talk to her and try to keep moving her energy. I’m realizing that I connect better to people when I touch them yet Pranic healing is one of not having to touch people. So I think that while I love certain aspects of it that I have to do what feels more accurate to me. And I think that if I’m going to keep doing energy healing I need to connect deeper. I need to really dig into it and I need to touch people…. sometimes it just feels necessary but I’ve stopped myself because well….I was scared and apprehensive.
I still don’t know that I want to call myself a healer, but it’s just a differentiation, a way to express yourself I suppose. It’s time I embraced this……. especially for myself.
Tonight I’m going to take a double dose of THC and do a karmic reckoning. I’m going to take back all the energy people have taken from me. I’m going to take back all the power I’ve given away over my lifetime. I’m going to reach into the universe with my arms outstretched and ask for healing, clarity and strength.
More importantly…… I am going to go confidently in the direction life wants me to go…..and it starts by not just allowing and accepting it but fully embracing it.
Ok……this is it.
I have no idea what the future holds but I’m jumping in with both feet. I’m letting go of the doubts holding me back. How many times does God need to prove to me this is where I am needed and wanted before I embrace it? I’ve been bull-headed. I’ve been afraid. No more. Absolutely no more.
Alright…… let’s do this!!!