Paranoia & Boone’s Farm

Hey…..I’m not oblivious. If anything I (personally) think I’m better informed than the average person. I was reading this article about 6 government websites being hacked and an “emergency directive” being given to all government agencies.

I myself have been wondering why my computer has been soft booting all night long. I’m about to start physically turning it off now each night as inconvenient as that may be….which fortunately is truly minimal anyway. Just reminds me how anything can be hacked, routers and anything with Wi-Fi capacity basically…right?

The thing is……in this kooky world I don’t have a heck of a lot of control over things. I’m not driving the bus really. I can only choose how I want to live this one little life: scared, panicked and afraid, or bold and happy. It take balls to be happy sometimes in this crazy ass circus of existing.

Don’t we all just want to be happy? Honestly I’ve never met someone that didn’t. Just that we all have different ideas of what that means is all. But when you strip away the dust, clear the cobwebs, and get to the heart of it. We all just want to be appreciated and loved, we all want to matter. I guess it may seem too simplistic to say that this has to start from within…..but I’m a simplistic kind of girl sometimes.

It’s a simple lesson we should all learn at some point in time. It would make a huge difference if we all did.


Sometimes I just say this shit for my own comfort and reminding. Sometimes it helps to relearn the basics. Lol ğŸ¤£ğŸ˜ŽğŸ¤·ğŸ½â€â™€ï¸


I think Lady Earl should have primrose in it too as well as the citrus. But then again I may just need to stick to Earl Grey and add citrus. Potato=potato. No reason to make a huge fuss about it, now is there?

If you’d have told me 20 years ago I’d be an avid tea enthusiast I would have rolled on the floor laughing after taking a huge swig of my cheap wine. What was that stuff called? Boone’s Farm? Lol. Too funny.

Author: porngirl3

I have always enjoyed reading and writing. Maybe because I have always been on the quiet and reclusive side; which most people may not guess at first glance or if seeing me in a social setting, especially around people I am comfortable with but it’s also not something I have an issue with. I need solitude to recharge. Writing gives me the peace and time to renew that is offered to you for your enjoyment and pleasure as well. I hope. Lol

3 thoughts on “Paranoia & Boone’s Farm”

  1. Very deft. 😉

    I completely agree.

    Yo me contentment is a very quietly subtle form of happiness. It isn’t joy. It isn’t laughter. It’s just a feeling that everything is ok, tinged with a tiny inner smile of gratitude, and when I can’t achieve contentment I go for hope with a big scoop of it’s all going to be ok. Lol

    Thanks for the in depth insight. It’s hard to relinquish control. It’s hard to let yourself go adrift in the chaos. But the funny thing about that is the more in control you feel of your own innate sense of security the less others chaos throws you off. But…..I never say it is easy. Just worth it.


  2. Two comments; First, I once dated a girl who did not believe in happiness. She said “happiness is over-rated”. But she was born and raised in Ireland, where they don’t believe they have a God-given right to be happy. I’ve always been a happy person, but lately, I have been refining what happiness truly is and its relation to contentment. I believe the two concepts are related, and also, that it is far easier to attain contentment than maintain a constant state of happiness. Actually, since happiness is an emotion, I prefer to now view it more like the sun. As a lover of nature and a professional photographer, I live for brilliant sunrises and sunsets, but at other times of the day, the sun is not photogenic. And on cloudy days, it is not visible. To me, that is how happiness is. To some it is elusive, to others, it is easier to achieve, but no one is happy 24/7.

    Second, about control. I could write a book on this subject, but to distill it down to a few sentences may be difficult. Human beings tend to like to pretend they can control their lives (and unfortunately, they also often attempt to control the lives of others). This is done to maintain a false sense that they are actually in control of a very out-of-control world we live in. The more enlightened of us understand that the only thing in your control is how you react to everything else that affects you, because everything other than your own thoughts and emotions is out of your control. That is the reality of life and once one accepts that, happiness and contentment are both far easier to achieve (see how I deftly tied the three concepts together?) LOL


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