Financial Abundance

I still have conflict with this

I believe money is energy

It facilitates transactional exchanges

There is a plethora of it

Especially considering it is a fabricated construct

It is destroyed, created, stolen, illegally made, traded, on and on.

It is in constant flux losing, gaining and holding arbitrary value

We give it it’s power

Far too much of it if you ask me

It is all rather meaningless really

And yet

It is probably the thing of most meaning to most people

Their financial value and stability

It is the key to life and death on this planet

To thriving and demising

Something we manufactured

That is complete idiocy to me

That government, corporations, elites and even religious entities make, utilize and disperse it willie nillie in amounts that make your brain hurt to think of

With little regard or care for the greater good

The commoner

The working stiff

I don’t get why we enslave ourselves to a system that holds so little benefit for the vast majority of the world

The dangling carrot wins

The nibbles don’t provide any real sustenance to our existence

And chasing it

Chasing it….is the march of a lost soul

I obviously want stability for my children

The ability to have freedoms

And choices

And experiences

More than anything I love sharing it

The look on a gas attendants face when I give them $1

Or a small child selling lemonade when I give them a $1 coin

Or a homeless a $2 bill.

These sorts of things are priceless to me.

The feeling of being able to be generous with myself, my love, my time, my concern, my money.

These things make my life beautiful.

But money in and of itself

Could cease to exist as far as I’m concerned

And I would be absolutely fine with it

So how then can I justify asking for financial abundance

When it means so little to my soul

And yet

I face a looming deadline

That is fast approaching

That demands me to be financially solvent

Or risk losing it all

All my material possessions


Heaven forbid

Custody of my children

It all confuses me deeply

And yet I have no choice it seems

But to play along


Why must I play along?

Author: porngirl3

I have always enjoyed reading and writing. Maybe because I have always been on the quiet and reclusive side; which most people may not guess at first glance or if seeing me in a social setting, especially around people I am comfortable with but it’s also not something I have an issue with. I need solitude to recharge. Writing gives me the peace and time to renew that is offered to you for your enjoyment and pleasure as well. I hope. Lol

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