I’ve known about this energy since I was a young child. It didn’t seem coincidence to me when lights would blow out as I stared at them when we drove past. When I would play mind guessing games with my friends and have a remarkably high accuracy, when I could affect the outcome of things around me with just my thoughts.
I ran from it after my teenage years because the only explanation I could find or understanding of it seemed to be psychic abilities and/or witchcraft. The former of which didn’t feel exactly accurate and scared me a bit and the latter made me feel too on the fringe. I didn’t want to do incantations. I didn’t want to call myself a witch. The connotation seemed negative no matter if “white” proceeded it or not.
Now……there is scientific evidence to prove what I have known and seen. Those energy bubbles I’ve known about in the sky. Auras. All of it. All explainable in tangible scientific ways. Don’t ask me why this matters to me; but it does. It takes it away from hocus pocus tomfoolery into reality. Into something I can be proud of. I guess I let my ego and fear get in the way. I didn’t trust in God.
I mean that’s what it seems to come down to really….to me. A few years ago I was at a very difficult juncture and I didn’t know where to go or who/what to lean on. I believed in God but I never depended on that faith so much for my day to day existence. This crossroads put me smack dab in the center of that belief and I almost felt like I had no choice, no where else to turn but up to that faith….to lead me through.
There is so much fear in that. To take a blind step in the direction your heart and soul tell you to to go when you can’t see where you are going or understand why. It’s the hardest and easiest thing to do at the same time. It reminds me of “the bird box challenge” for your mind. Shutting it off and relying on God to guide you, to provide the way, the knowledge when it needs to come, the guidance when it won’t and the peace and comfort in knowing it is all ok. It’s all how it is meant to be whether we will ever be able to grasp it on this plane or not.
I feel though…… that now that I know that what I’ve experienced my entire life is provable that I can step away from a lot of the analysis of it and just let it be what it is.
I remember the first time a stranger told me how special I was. I laughed. I didn’t understand what they meant. I wish I could say they were telling me what I wanted to hear, but it goes beyond that. I don’t have an answer. From what I can see we are all exactly the same at our soul level: we all came from God source. We are all in carbon form. Our mortal lives will all one day end. What we do in between is completely up to us…..as far as our soul. I am not one bit different. I myself have never claimed to be nor will I ever.
I’m just glad to be getting to know myself at a deeper level and knowing God.
Good morning and welcome to your life.