Brad talks about moving to Virginia, building a house on his dad’s property. Remote enough to be able to walk around naked freely, yet close enough to the city and people to socialize and get needs met. He makes it sound so idealic. He also makes it sound like neither one of us would have to actually work for a living. Which means I could write my books, take care of my kids and family, myself, maybe pick up gardening like I’ve been talking about for years. (Have lots and lots of sex. Shhhhhhh)
I could also potentially offer this healing on a donation basis. That way I could see for myself the efficacy based around the donations and “gifts” received. That would put the proof in the pudding.
It sounds like a much calmer and sweeter life; especially without financial stress. No life is completely free of stressors, but they are easier to handle when you live a serene life. Not to say we still won’t have deviancy. I explained to him how important community is to me. I haven’t managed to find it yet here that much but that is a goal no matter where I am.* I want not just a deviant community, but I want to grow and live in a community of people that I can consider like family.
He assured me there was a deviant community there that was well established albeit much more underground than the one here in Portland.
It sounds great in theory, but I’m just going day to day here. Still trying to find a naturopath to work with. I may have to use money as an incentive. I didn’t want to, but it may come to that. I’m not sure the issue really. Do naturopaths not know or understand colon hydrotherapy and The Gerson Therapy? Is there some fear associated with this? Fear of the unknown? Fear of the strange murders? In life it seems to be a lot about networking. I’ve found that to be both good and bad. It closes off opportunities sometimes to the detriment of all.
Truthfully, I’m not really interested in the reason beyond just trying to troubleshoot it. My business is already expanding, but this is a needed step. I can feel it deep in my gut.
I suppose I just keep the door open and keep moving forward. Believing there is a way, that it is possible, that spirit will align. If not this way then in the way it needs to manifest. I’m open to this wild adventure. Going day by day, moment by moment, breath by breath, heartbeat by heartbeat. What else is there to this?
*Too many factors to pin it on just one thing and too much brain activity to figure out why right now. Guess I haven’t made it a priority even though I have tried.