Jaded autopilot

I was talking to my psychologist about this. We were specifically discussing the difficulties of dating. Not only do we contend with a lot of “baggage” but so many walk around on this negative, bitter, and jaded autopilot. It makes it to where people don’t even want to try, or put in real effort. Almost like they’ve given up before they’ve really tried. Maybe I’m just speaking of some experiences with my own age group.

Of course this can be extrapolated beyond dating. Dialogue, especially self dialogue can be so damaging to ones spirit and the spirit of the world. It affects everything. There is a theory in science that the observer changes what is observed. I absolutely believe that to be true but it goes even beyond that. The thoughts, the intentions whether purposeful or not also change the outcome. They affect everything. The butterfly affect starts with a single thought, a single feeling, a subtle shift. I’m grasping this more and more every day.

One day I may no longer blog. I may just live each moment without rumination or thought process. Living in the splendor of each new breath. Wonder what that would look like? Lol

Who am I kidding though. I love to write. 😋

Author: porngirl3

I have always enjoyed reading and writing. Maybe because I have always been on the quiet and reclusive side; which most people may not guess at first glance or if seeing me in a social setting, especially around people I am comfortable with but it’s also not something I have an issue with. I need solitude to recharge. Writing gives me the peace and time to renew myself...here that is offered to you for your enjoyment and pleasure as well. I hope. Lol

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