I realized today I haven’t had a bout of insomnia in a bit. Yay!
(Rated XXX – pedophilia alert – reader advised)
I decided because Brad and I switch so much between D/s characters that I would create alter-ego’s for myself. It plays into the games we already play only it adds even more dimension to them. I’m excited to see where it goes and how many more I can create for our sexual play. We are starting with two.
April: sweet little daddy’s girl. Percocious and naive, anxious to explore her sexuality. So proud of her budding new curves that attract men to her like honey to bears. She utilizes her newfound power to taunt her father mercilessly. Often wearing no bra and see through tops, with no bottoms over her cute ruffled underwear. She leaves the door slightly ajar as she takes a bubble bath when mom isn’t home so he can watch her sud her supple perky breasts and play with herself. He visits her room late at night and teaches her about her body and the pleasures it holds.
Tabitha: the voluptuous nosy neighbor stuck in a boring and sexless marriage. She utilizes her knowledge of what is happening to blackmail April’s father into performing sex acts, torturing him, and forcing him to perform menial tasks around her house. She keeps him naked and chained as much as she can. She is absolutely ruthless with him, often times leaving him so scarred and spent he can’t even touch himself let alone think of doing anything else.
One would maybe ask why I play characters that hit far too close to home. Well….. for one it’s cathartic, and secondly it’s hot. The first character is actually the hardest for me but not in the way you’d think. It is hard because my body is no where near the body of a perky teenagers. So it takes a lot of trust to stabilize my own already present anxiety regarding this.
it does no good to pretend your fears and anxieties don’t exist, to pretend things that are happening aren’t happening. It does absolutely no good. You have to learn to deal with them as healthily as possible…. for everyone’s sake….. especially your own. Right?
Nina Simone – Feeling Good