These last few year’s have been the most rewarding and the most difficult of my entire adult life. I used to think my 20’s were hard and lonely. My 30’s felt boring and I lost a lot of my own identity. Now… well….. I never anticipated being a single mom with 3 kids, but life throws you curve balls and there’s nothing to do but keep swinging.
This year I want to be the year of letting love in. The year of being more open to life, to receiving and giving true depth and emotion. The year of allowing myself to be vulnerable. So often I am guarded and what does that give me? How does that protect me from being hurt?
Inevitably shit happens….at least sometimes. And no amount of worrying or guarding myself can stop life from happening.
There is no way to shield myself from life’s extreme occurencess. The only thing burying my head in the sand does is make me a bit oblivious to what’s happening, but it doesn’t stop it from happening. I’ve decided that I’d rather see it all, feel it all, experience it all. After all….it is my life.
I’d rather be fully present, so I can truly enjoy it: so I can extract as much glorious beauty that I can from it. After all….the magical moments in life are rarely ever planned or anticipated. Nope. This is the year of allowing space for glory. This is the year of trying to be fully present. Somehow I anticipate that this endeavor may not always come easy.
It may be similar to Harriet Tubman when she escorted slaves across the south. They would get scared and want to go back and she would have to threaten them with guns to keep going forward because going back would endanger not only them but the entire journey and everyone that assisted.
Luckily my journey is not as extreme. Yet I know along the way my heart and soul may be fearful. Being vulnerable is something we learn to avoid at almost all costs. So this may be an intense and deep inner battle at times.
But as they say…. the greatest battles are those fought and won within oneself.
May you all win your inner battles with love, courage and the resolve to keep moving forward. One life….one love…one time around.
Let’s make the most of it. Blessings to you all.💖💋