Should I just admit it?

I’m a sadist

Physically for sure (in a sexual relationship)*

And I think maybe emotionally as well

Because while I intuitively feel people’s emotions

It’s hard for me to align them

It’s hard for me to see the sequence to them sometimes

Which is why I (at times) need clarification

I also sometimes say things people interpret badly but since in my heart I mean no ill I don’t always see the direct correlation

Which by default I believe

Makes me an emotional sadist

And backpedaling my way out of it never seems to work either

Because at the point I need to explain

My explanations don’t seem to matter much

Which is why I agree so much with this

And since I refuse to be lambasted for things I don’t feel at fault for

A stalemate ensues

At which point I will refer whoever need be

Back to the first sentence in this post

And leave it at that



*not always, but yes….. some. Te he he


It’s an interesting conundrum. I think I try to meet people where they are and in a way they understand; sometimes this takes a lot of energy though. But ask anyone that knows me well and they’d all say I’m a very deeply, loving person. I guess I’m different things to different people. As it should be I suppose….maybe…. or at least it seems that way regardless of how I may want it. Lol.

Everyone is someone’s Devil I suppose.


Author: porngirl3

I have always enjoyed reading and writing. Maybe because I have always been on the quiet and reclusive side; which most people may not guess at first glance or if seeing me in a social setting, especially around people I am comfortable with but it’s also not something I have an issue with. I need solitude to recharge. Writing gives me the peace and time to renew that is offered to you for your enjoyment and pleasure as well. I hope. Lol

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