Gatekeeper

I’m truthfully not sure what kind of relationship Brad and I have*. So far it’s been me doing whatever I want and him telling me to do so. It’s very one-sided…..with the exception of me pushing him to try a sexual experience with a tranny. Which he hasn’t gotten to do yet.

Brad has suggested that I fuck whomever I want and he just be a fly on the wall with zero participation on his end. The thought is intriguing, but with the exception of making love he satisfies me sexually and I can’t see a reason to go out for more cock.

Now obviously I still have a bucket list of sexual experiences I want to partake in….many, many, many experiences…. but I see him being an active part of them. That’s not to say maybe I’ll try things I’ve never even dreamed of yet….

The part of making him only watch me with another man sounds like such sweet torture though that honestly that may just need to happen. Lol.

We shall see. Yesterday we got in a big fight at a nice restaurant near my house. Luckily I know almost no one. I do happen to know the chef at this place though (who did give me a few sweet glances) and I think based on Brad’s behavior he probably heard about the ruckus.

I don’t discredit that I may have been a small part of the instigation but I don’t justify people’s behavior, especially childish and impudent actions. Brad will have to learn to navigate my moods and most certainly his moods better. Generally speaking, except for affection, less is more in public and more is more in private.

I am ever happy to discuss issues and he can get as angry as he wishes behind closed doors. He can even learn to table it for a BDSM session so he can teach me what he needs from me. He doesn’t realize his tantrums just shut me down and I internalize none of it.

When he behaves this way it completely annihilates and invalidates any point he may have. Sometimes, like when he left last night, even though by this point we’d made up, I think to myself……how nice it is to just be alone.

Even still. Here he is. My gatekeeper.

*open, cuck, poly, etc.

Lol….no idea

Author: porngirl3

I have always enjoyed reading and writing. Maybe because I have always been on the quiet and reclusive side; which most people may not guess at first glance or if seeing me in a social setting, especially around people I am comfortable with but it’s also not something I have an issue with. I need solitude to recharge. Writing gives me the peace and time to renew myself...here that is offered to you for your enjoyment and pleasure as well. I hope. Lol

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