I’m doing a detox protocol. My moods are shifting quicker than usual. It’s normal but doesn’t make it any easier to handle.
Brad has me at a precipice. Part of me wants to fall into psycho possessive crazy needy girlfriend mode and the other part of me wants to be like “whatever; I’m happy you’re here but I’ll be fine without you too”. Not easy to manage that tightrope while also going through chelation.
Doesn’t help that I’ve been listening to sad songs all morning either.
When a person says they are going to do something, be here for me. I have expectations of that. Seems normal on my end. Life involves continual extenuating circumstances. I get that….. but I’m feeling a bit left in the dry. Unsure what is a correct level of dissatisfaction and just kind of navigating it all. It will be fine. Absolutely sure of that.
Just waiting for ease. The holidays themselves seem to make me a tiny bit sad too. The time change. All of it. It will be nice to have a snuggle buddy for some of the cold holiday nights.