Brad comes home tonight. I’m super excited to see him. I wish I could go tackle him at the gate but I have a client. I’m an ever the tiniest bit anxious though. We’ve been talking about making love, but I have no intention of bringing it up tonight. My apprehension is that we are such polar opposites in some ways. He likes to plan things and I like going with the flow. I wonder if he has any expectations or plans for tonight.
The other night I was in a stoney bliss and we were chatting over the phone and he easily took me on a sexual escapade. He recognized how easily stimulated I was and told me he wants to keep me stoned 24/7. I would love nothing more but I still have to function outside of a sexual realm. I still have kids, my business and responsibilities. This just reconfirms to me that I really need to get that man caged.
We started talking about possibilities with Johnny that night. He asked me what I saw happening and I told him. “In an ideal situation where everyone is comfortable and into it; I would love to see Johnny in the lingerie I gave him. I want to kiss him softly and hold him tight. It would be great if the main event included me forcing you to suck on Johnny’s cock and then for Johnny to give me oral pleasure while you ride his ass gently.” But this is all conjecture….. Johnny leads by desire and I lead by orchestrating. There is no other way for me.
Then of course Brad starts in “well what about DP for you? Are you bringing your strap on? How about you tie our two cocks together and try to suck them?” His enthusiasm is so cute. I find it enchanting really and a total turn on but I also feel like I’m reigning in a wild horse sometimes. Lol. He is just so sexual. Not complaining. Trust me. But…..
I had to tell him. You can’t just go from 0-60 like that. We aren’t porn stars. This is for fun. There is a matter of building trust and desire. Both of which most porn just skips over but is a very important part of real sex between real people.
Brad already knows in that situation he will absolutely, unequivocally defer to me. In this capacity he is indeed like my sexual gimp. He may get some sexual play. He will be present for the whole event but this is not specifically for his pleasure…. not that he won’t have a good time. He is, fortunately, fully aware and on board because otherwise this simply will not happen.
As it is, this may not happen. Originally Johnny seemed thrilled and now I haven’t heard back from him. I am having flash backs of trying to orchestrate my first male orgy with me at the realm. That was a disappointment. One day! It’s on the bucket list for sure. But I’m happy to check these things off slowly. Savoring them every step of the way; every bite a new luscious adventure; like grandmas home cooking.