I’m sick…. not feeling well. My head hurts. My side aches. I feel like I’m both starving and nauseous at the same time. I’m laying on the couch wishing for a warm blanket and soup. Knowing the only way I’m getting them is if I do it myself.
If I ask Brad he would gladly come and take care of me…. but I’m irritated beyond all civility that I should have to ask. Yes I know he has a million things to do. I suppose it didn’t occur to him. He did offer to drive down when I first got to drivers ed. Knowing I would be stuck there two hours I told him no. Maybe he should have called to clarify with me. Maybe I should have told him to come but when I’d be home.
Why am I so mad????
I want to be pampered. I DO NOT want to have to ask for it. What’s the point of having a boyfriend?
Maybe the pain is causing me mild delirium. Maybe I need to process this tomorrow or the next day after I’m feeling better.
He leaves Tuesday for a few weeks so I shouldn’t give him the cold shoulder much longer without explaining my position. I just don’t feel I should have to. Isn’t this like the basics? For fucks sakes!!
I know he loves me. Why am I being so difficult?