Severe Anxiety

What comes first? I can’t tell you why people develop anxiety; let alone severe anxiety. I just know myself and so many more people that suffer from it. Whether how, what, why it came who knows. Everyone has their own story to tell. From what I’ve seen only 5 activities naturally seem to alleviate this; running (or other intense vigorous exercise, even if in spurts), sex (including everything under that umbrella), hot yoga (I personally just can’t at this juncture in time go back to regular – non hot), nature (especially for me water based communal), and meditation/prayer.*

I may be loosing my base audience with the spiritual clusterfuck but oh well. Who can I be if not who I am? lol.

I see a lot of my clients have severe anxiety. I can understand every single point of view. We all get where we are for good reason.


I have not been able to get that man I saw at the Ross shopping center out of my mind. He was so extraordinarily beautiful. His eyes shone like a million sparkles in the sky. He had suffered greatly. Was suffering. He had a huge case of gout in his neck right at that moment. I wanted to cry. I wanted to fall at his feet and beg forgiveness that we as a world; as a society…. we let him get to this point. I wanted to give whatever he wanted to him. It is such an overwhelming feeling that I have to shut it down (when I can) and just offer them $2-4 and a tiny bit of my heart if they want to accept it (which they all genuinely seem to enjoy too). In this case I couldn’t. Not only was it breaking into a million pieces inside. I was in a hurry; like I always seem to need to be.

I think I’ll start praying for a more mellow life. For time to actually fucking enjoy it. To talk to the person at the checkout for a minute or two. To say hello to the neighbor. To hold the door for someone and notice when a child next to me falls and pick them up if needed. To not be exhausted come 5pm almost every night and then have insomnia on some. Lol

Healer – heal thyself!!! (Dammit). Te he he

I was told by a naturopath today; actually the client/holistic colleague who is potentially going to help me with getting the equipment oxygenated which will then kill off parasites in the entire body (I believe) and not just expel them from the colon. Yay!! Can you tell I’m super excited.

This man is helping actually cure people. I hate to even mention him. He doesn’t even have a web presence because of all those “accidents” naturopaths seem to be having in the last few years. Even after one was tape recorded less than a week before their death saying they were being followed and that if they died under mysterious causes it was not a suicide. Then poof. Suicide. Uhu.

Yea. Believable. I don’t get it though. The government knows how to get away with it better than that and make it an accident. So I figure it must be the pharmaceutical companies. Black jacket men don’t always come government affiliated…. or do they? Would the pharmaceutical companies have that much of a grip, the FDA, the CDC, the Medical Association, even medical universities could get a slice of this cake if they wanted to. Lol. I know nothing but I do love to conjecture. I find it all funny. That this is the world we live in where these possibilities are all unfortunately plausible.

OMG. All that to say he recommended also

Recall healing and Emotion Code for working with clients as well as for myself. I include myself although he only mentioned it helping others heal; at least it seemed that way. People sometimes are way too nice. It’s really also just that I don’t give my clients any information on anything that I don’t firmly believe in or use products on them I wouldn’t myself use and that I have not tried myself first hand and seen it to work. Why would I? No amount of money is worth that.


I’m not saying peoples anxiety is logical. PTSD is more logical than anxiety I feel but they both involve emotions and emotions are complex and appear fairly illogical at times and seemingly randomized.


* and let’s not forget THC for brains fully developed (past 25) or severe cases younger than that.

Author: porngirl3

I have always enjoyed reading and writing. Maybe because I have always been on the quiet and reclusive side; which most people may not guess at first glance or if seeing me in a social setting, especially around people I am comfortable with but it’s also not something I have an issue with. I need solitude to recharge. Writing gives me the peace and time to renew that is offered to you for your enjoyment and pleasure as well. I hope. Lol

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