I do believe in luck, but mostly I believe in Karma. That and my firm belief in not only heaven and hell but purgatory as well is the only thing that stops me from carrying around a machete or AK.
I used to work at a high end furniture store. It was the upper echelon of furniture stores; old-money type crap that was over the top opulent and came with a very hefty price tag. The interior designers/sales force went on a rotation for clients. In other words whoever was up next got the next people in the door pretty much no matter who it was. Unless it was something like a delivery or bathroom necessity.
There was one designer; older married rico-suave gentlemen that reinforced how I saw luck/karma. He was nice…. but he was also a bit unscrupulous. At least in his personal dealings. From what I had heard he had just come out of an affair with a married co-worker and now had his eyes on a very young assistant designer. He seemed to be well on the way to that conquest.
Inevitably, and I saw this happen day after day; he would get the worst “ups”. One day it would be a group of giggling teenagers wanting to get out of the heat. Another day a person would start working with him and then want to switch to work at another store or another designer. He had the worst sales record and I could see him hustle. It was not for lack of trying. He was also charming and impeccable groomed always.
But luck/karma seemed to always slap him around…. from what I saw. I remember seeing him fume and protest and I couldn’t help but muffle a laugh. After weeks and months of this I realized that not only was this guy not going to make it (because of high sales quotas) but that it absolutely did not seem coincidental. Even from my rudimentary vantage it seemed orchestrated by forces beyond my simple comprehension.
I got this text from a friend tonight and it made me think of luck and Karma. The Buddhist believe you can step outside the realm of Karma. I know from having had an extraordinary experience of this once that this is true but I also think it requires a force few of us know how to tap into. It is a spiritual level most of us never achieve.
Here is the exchange I had. Unfortunately this mad genius of a friend has been caught up in the madness of drugs. So I never quite know if it’s over my head brilliancy or if it’s just gibberish. Having had many deep conversations about things outside the realm of everyday life I usually tend to give him the benefit of the doubt. Usually our conversations leave me with more unanswered questions than when we started though. Judge for yourself.
I love the line about a daily battle with the universe.
For some reason I can’t get the word preternatural out of my head.
I did this great meditation tonight I wanted to share. I found it very grounding. I don’t know if it could possibly trigger PTSD with people with spatial issues. I have a very good imagination so to me visualization comes very naturally and by far this was one of the easiest, fastest, deeply felt meditations I’ve done in a long time. Hope you enjoy!
Close your eyes and breath deeply. Feel your body. Feel the rhythm of your breath as it flows in and out of you. Give in to all the sensations your body is feeling. (In this case I was naked on the bed so I’ll go with that). Feel the edges of your body. Feel the inside organs, your heart beating. Now say to yourself “here I am. In this body. In this moment. At this exact time. This is my experience. This is my life. This is me.” (Or something like this.)
Breath deep and take it all in. Try to stay in the physical realm of the experience and not emotional. In other words try to get out of your emotions and thoughts and into the sensations of your body. Once you have a good sense of your body widen your perception. “Here I am on this bed” clearly visualize the bed… “in this room” visualize the room as if you’re floating above your body now.
“In this house…. on this street”.
Clearly visualize the house and the street and yourself on the bed in this room of this house (or wherever you are).
In this town
In this county
In this state
And as you think this circle out as if looking at yourself from a birds view to a map view and out further and further.
In this country
On this continent
In this hemisphere
On this planet
Circled by the moon
Circling the sun
With these planets and stars
In this solar system
In this galaxy
In this universe
So far removed from your physical body that our galaxy is a mere speck of dust as your consciousness floats far out into space. Where you almost disappear completely.
Then slowly come back in. Towards our galaxy. Into our solar system. Towards our planet. Into the right hemisphere. Onto the continent. Into the country. The state. The county. The city. The street. The house. The room the bed and back into your body. Into your singular experience of living this life. Right now. Here. Breath deeply.
Welcome to your life!