Earlier this year I was in communication with a lovely man offering himself to be my full-time slave in the old guard way. In other words he would relinquish all control over his own dominion and I could subjugate him to any torture, punishment, whim, etc. He cooks (having been to culinary school thanks to his last owners) and he can also contribute some modest financial assistance.
I liked him a lot. He seemed to really understand my psyche and needs. My concerns where that at this point I was so new to the power exchange dynamic I didn’t quite know how I would incorporate 24/7 Master/slave life into my very boring, suburban life with my children. That and at the time I was in a precarious financial position myself. I didn’t feel it fair to take on another household member under my wings that was going to be dependent on me for stability.
But….. small world. It turns out he ended up in the Portland area after all and I saw him on Facebook in a photo with a local young, beautiful fellow Domme I absolutely adore. Our paths seem likely to cross now, so I may have the chance to meet him IRL. Which is something we never got to do.
So the thing about “playing with friends” is that we live in a world with STD’s. Karmic balance for sex maybe. I hate to think how much more debauchery would exist without them. Kind of like if women could only get pregnant when they wanted to, what would that be like? As far as sexual behavior; interesting thing to think about. More dangerous? Less dangerous? Who knows?
Reality dictates we be careful who we sleep with and get tested if we have multiple, swinging or pick-up partners. I myself got tested 3 times over the last year. Not because I’m a sexual fiend. Truthfully I don’t think I’ve played all that much but I went from hardly any sex at all with one long term partner to this new lifestyle. It’s been one hell of a big leap and I’m much more conscious of it now than I was in my 20’s when all I cared about was condoms to not get pregnant.
Now….. I have this juxtaposition of lives. Single mom, business owner, health practitioner, spiritual seeker, girlfriend and…..
In so much as what I do and how I think don’t seem to be quite the “norm”. Not that I strive for normalcy at all in any realm of my life; with the exception of stability for my children. What truly is normal? There is a bell curve for human behavior and it is all “normal” for humans. Isn’t it? I mean has anyone truly done anything that another human at some point hasn’t already done or thought of? Whether it is historically thought of as acceptable for the time period, place, and societal structure is a totally different thing. Losing track. Ok. Point it.
How to reconcile this lifestyle I seem to be getting entrenched into with my desire to stay of sound body and mind? Food for thought; and something that needs to be seriously considered.
I’m trying to orchestrate a girl/boy/boy threesome. I finally get to see two men fuck IRL. I can’t tell you how big of a smile that gives me.