So fucking horny

I haven’t had a steady stream of sex as I do with Brad since my last ex before marriage. We’re talking a really long time here. I had forgotten how fucking wonderful it is to orgasm and connect physically on a continual basis, especially with someone you care about. God…. it just makes a HUGE difference in my day to day living. I absolutely need the tactile connection and wonderful release and emotional comfort.

So now with him gone all week I’ve masturbated… which is nice and fine and does the job somewhat but is like feeding a hangry person a single rice cake when they were really wanting a whole gooey pizza. Just no comparison.

I’m not complaining. I’m rather surprised myself how much I miss him really. We talk and text all day long so we are still very emotionally in sync. This is exactly why long distance just doesn’t and would never work for me. I need contact. I need touch.

Looking back, this desire has always been an intricate part of who I was. My mother would always call me “ensimosa” which literally translated mean “girl that’s on top of”. It’s a derogatory phrase for someone that just can not stop being tactile. My mother is quite the opposite in this regard so you can see the huge disconnect I had growing up since most times she was my only outlet for affection. I have dozens of memories of her pushing me away.

Which now as a mother myself I find truly sad, but then was just normal. Funny that it didn’t stop me from trying, nor does it stop me now from being tactile and overly affectionate with my own family and loved ones.

This is why I totally get those hug places. I can see why people pay to be hugged. It just feels good. It’s a necessary part of our human, social dynamic. We need it, just like those monkey experiments demonstrated years ago. Without kind human touch and affection we become monstrous inside. This is also why I love the “free hug” movement. I almost contemplated putting a “free hugs” sticker on my car but…… sometimes I like to zone out and just be in my own head and I can see myself spacing out and possibly reacting oddly.

Frankly, I’m not always the most approachable person. I don’t think guarded is the word…. more just withdrawn and pensive; quiet and shy. Not really someone you’re typically gonna find barreling towards a stranger with arms outstretched. Lol. Funny thought though.

Hugs and sex. Mutually exclusive or mashed together. Either way. Yummy goodness.

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Brad tells me… “go do what you want”, “go fuck whoever you want”. I find it funny and cute. I’ve never been given a free reign before. Interestingly him giving me complete liberty to do whatever I want, whenever I want with whoever I want doesn’t make me want to do it. Such a waste of a beautiful sentiment….. but he knows together we will do lots. My imagination has few boundaries and many wild desires. He’s in for one wild ride!!!

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I’m having blog dejavú. I think I’ve said most of this before…. especially the “I’m so horny” part. Lol

Author: porngirl3

I have always enjoyed reading and writing. Maybe because I have always been on the quiet and reclusive side; which most people may not guess at first glance or if seeing me in a social setting, especially around people I am comfortable with but it’s also not something I have an issue with. I need solitude to recharge. Writing gives me the peace and time to renew myself...here that is offered to you for your enjoyment and pleasure as well. I hope. Lol

5 thoughts on “So fucking horny”

  1. Hate it when masturbation only “gets the job done.” It’s like the bare minimum of what’s needed at any given point.

    But hugs are always awesome. I’d give free hugs but in my neck of the woods, I think I’d get the shit kicked out of me for it.

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    1. Right???

      Ugghh. That’s horrible. Backwards ass mentality people have. If these idiots sat down and really thought this through…..really actually logically contemplated it….. the harm that comes to themselves and others from their anger and critical judgement…..but no. Sheeple. Well. What can you do? They probably need hugs more than we do. Lol. Hey……Create a secret hug club. Now that’s funny. No. I don’t want you getting your ass kicked. Licked is totally different. 😉

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      1. I don’t think people realize how much harm they are doing themselves and how much happiness they are depriving themselves of. They’re starving. As you said, they probably need hugs more than we do.

        I could get them together in a basement. We could hug it out. XD

        You know, I’ve never actually experienced that. Not getting my ass kicked, I experienced that quite a few times XD

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