Alone or lonely
Scared or cautious
Funny or jaded
Smart or guarded
Lazy or systematic
Procrastinator or optimist
I need to get out of my head
You know what I need to do?
What I should do right now?
I had a man accuse me of exhibitionism or attention seeking with my blog.
I don’t see it that way. I see it as my introversion and writing seeking an outlet. That there is a small returning audience to read my silly diaries is a guilty pleasure. I will admit that. Yes. It gives me comfort and joy. I don’t see the harm or wrong in that. I’m not changing who I am or trying to portray a false character of myself to please anyone or seek accolades and adoration.
I’m just being me. Maybe I gloss over some of the underbelly. Hey. In the reel of our lives there is the truth and then there is our own perspective of that truth. Where they to play the good and the bad separately I’d be thought of as an angel or a demon, as beautiful or hideous…..but no, like everyone else I will always just be a fallible human character in a state of being…..until the day I am not at least. Then on to the next adventure. Whatever that may be. Right?
It is when you stop fearing that you can truly live.
update: couldn’t masturbate last night with the sick toddler at my side. Lol. I’m shooting for 2-3 orgasms right now. Wish me luck. 💋