Alone or lonely
Scared or cautious
Funny or jaded
Smart or guarded
Lazy or systematic
Procrastinator or optimist
I need to get out of my head
You know what I need to do?
What I should do right now?
Masturbate
Yep
Uhu
I had a man accuse me of exhibitionism or attention seeking with my blog.
I don’t see it that way. I see it as my introversion and writing seeking an outlet. That there is a small returning audience to read my silly diaries is a guilty pleasure. I will admit that. Yes. It gives me comfort and joy. I don’t see the harm or wrong in that. I’m not changing who I am or trying to portray a false character of myself to please anyone or seek accolades and adoration.
I’m just being me. Maybe I gloss over some of the underbelly. Hey. In the reel of our lives there is the truth and then there is our own perspective of that truth. Where they to play the good and the bad separately I’d be thought of as an angel or a demon, as beautiful or hideous…..but no, like everyone else I will always just be a fallible human character in a state of being…..until the day I am not at least. Then on to the next adventure. Whatever that may be. Right?
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It is when you stop fearing that you can truly live.
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update: couldn’t masturbate last night with the sick toddler at my side. Lol. I’m shooting for 2-3 orgasms right now. Wish me luck. 💋
Yes. You’re absolutely right!!
That would be the ultimate test. Wouldn’t it?
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I just commented to Dorinda about why people take the time to read and then comment about things they dont like. I am too busy to read things that dont make me feel good.
By the way… super picture but it would be really awesome if there was a guy tied to the wall yearning to have a part of what you are doing. 🙂
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I find it amusing. I am all for seeing all sides of a situation, but the comment was neither helpful, constructive or even noteworthy. It is perplexing more than anything, but I quite enjoy being perplexed. Lol
And that is EXACTLY what I was thinking about when I took that picture. Such a hot thought. Truthfully though I’ll have to get over a huge stigma I have in regards to being seen masturbating because I need mechanical help to get there. Maybe that’s even more of a reason to do it though.
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My wife has similar concerns. I dont thing she has ever brought herself to orgasm with just her hand. I thing it is something from her childhood being told not to touch herself there (just a guess). She lets me watch her have orgasms with a vibrator when she is feeling like teasing me without having me participate. But she feels slightly uncomfortable with me watching.
I think, in situations (your picture) you have to fantasize about the good things the other person is thinking of when they are watching you… and its easy to tell if a guy likes what he is watching 🙂
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Hahahaha, yeah, that’s my go-to as well. But you forgot bored: it’s always a nice distraction. If only it didn’t get boring again not long after, that’d be the bee’s knees (yes, I said that. Uh-huh.)
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You are not old enough to say that? 😂
Bored? OMG. Boredom is a dimension of hell. I can’t stand boredom. Meanwhile….. relaxation, a calm somber, rumination, quiet observation, you know….. things that closely resemble boredom but have purpose and not a negative connotation to them. Those I find tolerable. In fact…..
Nothing infuriates me more than when my kiddo’s come up to me and say “I’m bored”. I just roll my eyes and bite my tongue so I don’t fly off the handle at them. Like “seriously!?!?”
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Why would I be too young to say that? 😀
Boredom is hard (excuse the double entendre there, definitely not intentional.) Rumination, observation, meditation on various things, even empty pontification are all very nice, but sometimes even they run their course. Then boredom sets in.
Ooh, those ellipses. I love cliffhanger ellipses.
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You’re a baby and anyone under the age of 70 doesn’t say that or even know about that saying. Usually. Lol
Boredom is lack of imagination, loss of hope or just giving up for the time being. Drink a cup of coffee and go for a long walk. Boredom is the ultimate self-indulgent selfishness. Sorry. Nothing personal to you, just a “hot button” of mine.
And yes. Ellipses are so sexy. I wish I had the foresight to do them purposely. Lol
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Well, I know it. Never used it before, though. Except for that one time….
Nothing taken personally, no worries. I rarely get “bored” anyway (in the sense that we are using it), it’s mostly just depression repeating the “none of it matters anyway” bullshit with enough conviction to at least take the joy out of everything.
Practice makes perfect….
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I am knee deep in being sick right now so you’ll have to excuse my overly frank, slightly bitchy self today.
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It’s alright n_n Get well soon!
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Thanks 💋❤️
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