Paranoia

It’s funny to fight anxiety with THC because it can also sometimes make you paranoid.

I read an article recently linking bi-polar episodes to the lunar cycle. I think I’ll start plotting my moods. I always figured they were mostly hormonal but a graph would be more scientific. I’m going to start journaling my food/moods/bowel/sexual appetite. We stupid humans think we are in control.

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Lately I’ve taken to saying to myself “I accept love”. Whenever out and about and I start getting negative thoughts especially about being judged by others. I stop focusing on those thoughts as soon as I remember and just repeat to myself over and over “I welcome love, I welcome joy, I welcome laughter” until I feel calm. We stupid humans think we have no control.

OMG. I crack myself up.

Author: porngirl3

I have always enjoyed reading and writing. Maybe because I have always been on the quiet and reclusive side; which most people may not guess at first glance or if seeing me in a social setting, especially around people I am comfortable with but it’s also not something I have an issue with. I need solitude to recharge. Writing gives me the peace and time to renew myself...here that is offered to you for your enjoyment and pleasure as well. I hope. Lol

3 thoughts on “Paranoia”

    1. Thank you! 😊

      I am not above anyone though, although it is really fun to pretend I am.

      I love what you are saying. “Be joy, be love, be laughter”. I agree with it intrinsically but it counters my deep fears of people so often taking from me or wanting to engage when so often I just want to be left alone. Which is why I specify to myself that “I welcome” because it’s also my way of letting down my guard while still feeling safe. It’s my way of easing my anxiety. I think trying to “be” more than I am feeling may actually give me more anxiety. Maybe? Lol

      But I appreciate your thoughtfulness and the loving spirit of your response. I truly wish I could be those things you say. It is a lovely endeavor. I’m not sure I’m at that level yet though. 😉

      💋❤️

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