I’ve said before that I don’t need a harem of men, but today had me thinking differently. The funny part is that there is almost no self interest in this desire.
Jonny texted me today. Last week I had thought Brad and I we’re going to be going to Summer Spank; which is suppose to be a fun, low key, fetish (adult only) summer camp out held here locally. A few fellow Domme’s were talking about it and made it sound so very fun.
But Brad and I decided that the hard work and expenditure of a 4 night camp out was a bit too much for us, especially with his bad back. I am a tiny bit disappointed but maybe next year we can swing it.
Anyway. I had initially invited Jonny to meet us there since I know how very shy he is and how much he would love to be introduced to other Domme’s and get more into the lifestyle. Plus I thought maybe if it happened that the three of played together it could end up being lots of fun.
So anyway. I had to tell him we weren’t going after all to which he told me how lonely he has been feeling. It made me wish I could take him and all these other wonderful men I’ve met recently under my wings and give them the attention and affection they need. However sexually I was thinking because Brad satisfies me so much but has a much higher libido and a tendency to be extreme sometimes that if he could fuck my boi’s instead of me….. lol…..well….. it just sounds like so much fun.
Who has time for that though? What I am talking about would be a full time job and right now I barely have enough time for just one man. Plus my life outside of play is so PG with my kiddo’s and primary businesses that I would have to compartmentalize it to proportions that are completely unfeasible. I mean….a girl has to sleep too and that’s something I’m not getting enough of as it is.
It’s a fun thought though; because the harem would essentially really be his to play with but with me in ultimate control of that play and also probably participating a little too. I mean who could really resist a harem of men? I’m not gonna kid myself.
Oh I do so enjoy the though of it and I know I would love the control. But alas reality is not so generous to me. Ho hum.
This is by no mean a complaint though. I have one great man in my life. I am happier than I can even explain. But I’ve met some other great guys along this fetishist road that I would love to help, direct, give attention to and satiate on the levels they need…… but they aren’t Brad…. they aren’t going to ever be my primary.
That said….. they do have their own great and unique merits and I can see they are in need and my heart goes out. So many beautiful boi’s……..
but right now….. Brad is my every thought and every desire and the harem is just a silly fantasy.