So Fucking Naive πŸ˜

Funny to me

Seems that’s what I’ve been accused of

By a lot of people

A lot of my life

And you know what

They are I’m very, quite sure right

But….

I can only be who I am

And feel what I feel

And I’ve disappointed enough people in my life to know that at the end of the day

The one I should really least disappoint is really myself

So to that endeavor I simply try to stay true to me

The only “exact me” around these parts that I know of

And that me

Looks at people

Everyone really

(At least I genuinely try)

With compassion

Because I feel

That just like me

At the end of the day

They did the best they could

With the conditions present in their reality

(Fiction or real….

I mean…)

What kind of childhood did this person have?

What kind of upbringing?

What kind of propaganda and influence

Knowledge and privilege or lack of power?

How am I to truly know what and why and how this person endures?

What kind of love do they have for themselves or the world, the universe and all it’s kind

What kind of love does this person FEEL coming back from the world?

What is their health?

Their mental health?

Their mental ability?

Their food, environment, quality of life?

How am I to really know what they have goin on….. deep inside?

We were all born and part of God is all I know and what I truly believe

And to that end…. or rather from that beginning, we all have goodness inside

Even if to some of us it may be buried

But

That is usually brought about by fear

Isn’t it?

And don’t we all mostly live afraid?

Sadly

That just seems to be the case here

But then again. Maybe I’m just being naive.

Maybe there are more layers to be seen

There is always that

———————

I’ve just accepted for myself

That in this life

I crave deep intimacy

I love to have intimacy with others

People

Anyone really

Even if it only last a split second

I so crave it

And relish it

Especially when I am honored

By people living their truth

And having compassion for me

And for themselves within that truth

Such the most beautiful feelings

To share with people

And other times

I just like floating on my cloud

It can be at times such a beautiful place to be

And everything in between

You know…..

Some of the cumbersome

The chores

The drudgery

I try to make the absolutely best of it

Right?

I mean…….

What’s the alternative?

————

Hey everyone…….

Missing my friend writers. Missing my massive following of 50 or so…..πŸ’‹ and my over 100 (sometimes) views a day. That people spend even a minute of their day, even a moment, even more than a minor glance on me and my life feels like an honor and privilege and I don’t take it for granted. Even when I suppose maybe an ever so tiny bit may be negative maybe.*

Such is the life of life it seems and social media just exacerbates it; I think. Then again…..would I ever want to be Kim Kardashian…. well for one; I couldn’t even if I wanted to. Lol. I think I’m joking here. How about a combination of Nicole Miller and Mother Theresa minus the drugs and alcohol and lack of understanding. Although they both left their mark. She was after all one of the original exhibitionist reality stars on TV and if you don’t know who the other is…… OMG. I can’t even.

——/—-

Life has been a bit stressful for me as of the last few years but…..then again….I’m pretty happy right now……

Doesn’t hurt that I am falling in love……or it hurts so good. Can’t decide. Lol

Thank you my darling……is all I can think to say. β€οΈπŸ’‹

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*It’s just not all good, but I’m changing the mantra In my head to say “it’s all good!” Not because I’m an idiot that can’t distinguish good outcomes versus bad ones, but because I only have one fucking life and if I don’t grab it by the balls and say alright “let’s go!” then who the fuck is?

(Mmmmmmmmmm….

God…. I missed getting stoned.)

Kisses πŸ’‹

(People think when I say it I sound marmy

And maybe I do

But it does feel good to say it. Even just here now….. shhhhh. Don’t tell anyone.)

Author: porngirl3

I have always enjoyed reading and writing. Maybe because I have always been on the quiet and reclusive side; which most people may not guess at first glance or if seeing me in a social setting, especially around people I am comfortable with but it’s also not something I have an issue with. I need solitude to recharge. Writing gives me the peace and time to renew myself...here that is offered to you for your enjoyment and pleasure as well. I hope. Lol

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