Stress and Regrets

I’m not one to be regretful

It just isn’t a habit I fall into

But it does catch me once in a while.

A few months ago I was getting food to go from the local five guys

There was this young woman there I knew something was wrong with

I could sense it by her energy

She was dressed adequately but behaved erraticly

Outside the place she was throwing up

She was clearly hungry

And in need of care

She seemed more than obviously strung out on something as well

I wanted to help but I was so emotionally overburdened and stressed out at the time

I just didn’t have the energy to put out for her

I still feel that way at times

Like I sense when people need care and concern

When they need to interact

They need to share and be understood

And I want to give them that

But I don’t always have the energy or time

And I wish it wasn’t like that

I wish the world didn’t run so fast paced constantly

I wish I could turn it down a few notches

I punished myself that day by taking this sticker off my car*

I can’t say one thing and do another.

I can’t stomach being such a hypocrite

I am trying

I still struggle

Life is not easy

I know this

And yet here we are

Welcome to life

Glad to intersect

Hope you’re having a nice time



I think I wrote about this before but for some reason it’s been on my mind today. I need to let it go. I suppose I am seeking my own forgiveness here. Is what it is.

*even though the residue stuck. Lol

Author: porngirl3

I have always enjoyed reading and writing. Maybe because I have always been on the quiet and reclusive side; which most people may not guess at first glance or if seeing me in a social setting, especially around people I am comfortable with but it’s also not something I have an issue with. I need solitude to recharge. Writing gives me the peace and time to renew that is offered to you for your enjoyment and pleasure as well. I hope. Lol

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