Dear me, myself and i

Erase everything

Erase the past

Erase the future

Erase all that surrounds you

The people

The places

The scents, sounds, activities

All of it

Pretend there is nothing

Absolutely nothing

Except you

In all your naked glory

And a mirror

That’s it

That’s all there is

Picture yourself standing in front of this mirror

Look deep into your own eyes

Into your own soul

Do you like this person?

Do you like who this person is?

How this person behaves?

How this person lives? Eats? Works? Plays?

Is this your optimal self?

Optimal for this exact space and time?

Not some mythical realm of perfection

Not what you wish you had and were

But this person standing here now

With nothing outside of this person in existence

With all that this person before you is…..

Is this the best?

Could, without changing anything outside of yourself….. could you be better?

—-

Now…..

Put everything else back in place.

Sooooo

Then

If nothing in your world changed except that you were your best version of you that you can imagine

In the right here and now

What would that look like?

Now if everything else MUST stay the same as it currently is, but you are still free to be your best self.

How can you achieve that?

Without forcing anything outside of yourself to realign itself.

Without blaming anything or anyone.

As if someone took that best version of you and just plopped it into your place.

As an even exchange

What does that look like?

How would you now be?

Life can be resistance or life can be fluid. Knowing you only have real control over yourself.

Your actions.

Your thoughts.

Your experience.

Define it.

Designate it.

Stop letting outside factors designate and define you.

This is one go around.

Are you going to bring yourself to the table?

Are you going to give it your all?

Or are you going to die a slow death complaining and blaming your life away?

Get off your ass, soap box, high horse, tiny violin, drama fueled, passive-aggressive, anger driven, giving up/hopeless, head in the ground, or whatever your deal is issue at this moment…..

And start living your best you.

NO EXCUSES

——-

Wherever you are now

That’s home

Not some far away place

Not where you were yesterday, or

Tomorrow

As a child

In a dream

Or fantasy

No….

Now

In this body

In this time

In this place

Right here

Right now

Welcome to your life

Start fucking enjoying it!!

Irregardless

Blah blah blah

Uhu

Find it

Find your bliss

It’s not anywhere but

Exactly where you are now

I’ll give you a hint

It nothing outside of yourself

Or rather

It is found in only one place

Everything else can and may eventually be taken away

Such is life

There is one constant

YOU

Until of course

there is not a you

You gonna wait until then to live?*

It was orange. An orange moon. Hard to tell with an iPhone six in a turbulent airplane through thick reflective window panes. Lol

——

*hard sometimes when I think that maybe a lot of people, most especially myself here of course, would benefit from hearing this on a regular basis; but then maybe there are those that wouldn’t. That maybe shouldn’t. That need clarification of things even more basic then this before this applies. We are not all on the same path.

——-

My path in life has not always been easy.

But no complaints…. right now I feel I am being led to heal people. Not just in the capacity I currently work in but with people everyone has given up on. God keeps seeming to be directing me that way. There isn’t a guideline for this undertaking. So I’m waiting for the path to be lit for me. I am ready and willing to take the steps. Maybe I may have to take a few steps in blind faith. That’s ok too. But if God wants me to do this I will need a few more signs and definitely a lot of help. We shall see. One foot in front of the other. I may make some mistakes here; but this seems to be where I am needed. 🤷🏽‍♀️

Author: porngirl3

I have always enjoyed reading and writing. Maybe because I have always been on the quiet and reclusive side; which most people may not guess at first glance or if seeing me in a social setting, especially around people I am comfortable with but it’s also not something I have an issue with. I need solitude to recharge. Writing gives me the peace and time to renew myself...here that is offered to you for your enjoyment and pleasure as well. I hope. Lol

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