“When you’ve been in the darkness long enough, you begin to see. I saw what lies ahead; who I needed to be in order to survive.” – Dolores
“I know you have a delicate constitution. So I will do my best to ease your conscious. What is about to happen will not be your fault” – forgot
“They destroyed the man I was, but then….. I was reborn. And this time I came out breathing fire.” Native Ake
“Perhaps this life is not my true life, this world was not my true home; but she was*” – Ake
“I feel I’ve…. loved you for so many lifetimes” – Native Koha
“I saw through their lies. I knew I would find her. But first I had to face the journey before me…… I had to put everything into my search. All of my heart and body. I searched distant territories; and hostile towns, an easy target for hundreds of enemies. There were days I had to fight for my life.” Ake
OMG. Sooo good. I stopped transcribing at one point. Just way too much. The dialogue was so good. So easy to extrapolate it all to my life, to the world, to existentialism.
*I can sometimes hear Carrie’s mother’s voice from the movie Carrie; saying “they’re all gonna laugh at you”. Wicked.
What I was gong to say here is that I know this isn’t my world. I have seen heaven and once you know that you realize this beautiful and painful or everything in between world….. this that we all hold onto so tightly…. this is not my real home. Heaven is……
Yet. I’ve seen hell too & if you knew hell you’d pack your shit and become a hermit in a cave if that’s what it took. I have proof there are more, many more worlds that intermingle with our own. I have had enough interactions with them. Not just worlds: entire different existences. Not in the space of time and travel. No. I mean parallel dimensions all at play in the here and now. Exactly where you are now is where all is. It’s quantum and spiritual. God I love science!! Suppose it’s all about what you believe though. Don’t take my word for it.
I just know. Clearer than anything….that I was promised someone to love. Someone who would love me as if through the eyes of God. I can’t explain it. I have prayed for it, wished upon it, felt it my entire life. That it is coming for me. I never thought I’d have to wait so long….. but I will wait as long as I need to…. to know it is real.
So back to the show…..
I love Westworld; but must it be so gory. I get it. People like in your face shit. Just ugghhh. Some of it is too much for me sometimes. I’m a light weight when it comes to that. In reality. If I had to be faced with such bloodbaths I’d figure it out. What choice do you have? In the “I don’t have to look at that crap if I don’t want to world”. Wait….. hmmmmmm…… where… where does that place exists? Oh. Wait. Denial…yep…. I suppose that is the place. It’s way too crowded there though. Way too crowded.
Went to a School District meeting tonight. They were discussing pesticide use on school grounds. 4 hours of my life wasted. These people charged with making decisions could have at least TRIED. But noooooo….. follow the status quo. Does it matter to anyone that a major pesticide lobbyist had private time during the meeting with the board members?
I just don’t get it. These people had a chance to make a positive change in the world or at least TRY….but noooooo. Heaven fucking forbid you ad work to someone’s paygrade. Ruffle feathers because you want to change the ways things are done. Nope. Doesn’t matter that we are talking about children here. Doesn’t matter that they could have set a precedent for the city and for other school districts. Nope. Lazy bureaucracy wins again. The stupor is stupefying.
Why do they have alerts about alerts? I get it. “Be Prepared”. Ugghhh. Whatever. Just instills fear. Ok fine. But you should have some antidote. The other extreme. If you’re going to make me afraid then I request you paint me a better picture too. Can I have alerts about good things too maybe? Not just good, not just great, something absolutely fucking epic. Can I get that alert interrupting my TV show too? Interrupting my child’s classes. Yea. Didn’t think so. Ok. You can make it up to us another way. Let me think…….