I had a dream last night I was making love to this man I absolutely adored and who adored me. Mad love!!! No one I know in real life unfortunately.
We were in some Airbnb type situation (cohabitating) in an exotic city and he took me to the stairwell to see the gorgeous skyline. From this location you could clearly see the sky in two opposite directions. He wanted to fuck me so I could look in one specific direction and I wanted to look at the skyline in the other direction; as to me that was more beautiful and the thought of enjoying this view while having sex there with him was beyond belief.
He hesitated when I moved myself so he could see the view he wanted and I could see the view I wanted; but only for a split second. Then he saw what I was doing and smiled at me with not only full acceptance but with love. He knew. He understood.
I love being a Domme and I know in a Domme situation with a female that going down on a woman is the power position. I wish that was the case with men too since I so love giving blow jobs; but unfortunately the only way to do that is either with me in complete charge, starting and stopping as I see fit, edging, involving small amounts of pain, restraint and/or feminization. I guess that will have to do since I don’t intend to stop giving them. I could always give them as a bottom, but I enjoy them much more than I like to be topped.
Obviously not now. I’m celibate now. Why do I feel like an alcoholic when I say that? Like I just jumped on the wagon. Lol