Adoration vs Idolization

I don’t want to be idolized.

I want to be cherished.

I want to be adored.

Idolization is what most gay men tend to do to the women they “adore”*

They put them on this glass pedestal

Surrounded by all these expectations

And constant judgement to uphold that perfect ideal

It’s flattering for 5 seconds

Then it’s just a burden

I want to be pampered

I want to be thought of fondly

And doted on

And I’ve been lucky

That sometimes I inspire that in people

From lovers and friends to complete strangers even

And it feels so beautiful

And I am ever grateful

I truly don’t take it for granted

And while I do currently seek to be deeply worshipped by one man

I don’t expect that to come with stipulations

Or any if, but, when’s

I expect it to come unabashed

In full force

With no holds barred

With no restrictions

Unconditionally

And I can recognize that that’s not something that most people want asked of them

But then again…..

I don’t want to love just anyone**

Sooooo yea. Lol

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*horrible generalization; I know.

**in the sense of being in a relationship; because even though yes I really do try to “love” everyone; in the biblical sense…as much as I can. I mean…. come on…. let’s be realistic though….. there is a reason why the people that have honed this skill and gushed pure love for everyone have become immortalized; Buddha, Jesus, Joan of Arc, Mother Teresa, St Francis of Assisi….right? Because this really isn’t the easiest thing to do and then too there are probably hundreds and hundreds more….that have left a true mark on the world that have gone maybe mostly unnoted. I’d be happy to be one of those…assuming I even can be. I hold no aspirations for anything more. Nor do I want or need accolades, ribbons, trophy’s or awards. All I truly want is to leave the world an ever so little, itty-bit, tiny-bit better for my having been on it. Doesn’t seem too much to ask of myself. Does it?

Author: porngirl3

I have always enjoyed reading and writing. Maybe because I have always been on the quiet and reclusive side; which most people may not guess at first glance or if seeing me in a social setting, especially around people I am comfortable with but it’s also not something I have an issue with. I need solitude to recharge. Writing gives me the peace and time to renew myself...here that is offered to you for your enjoyment and pleasure as well. I hope. Lol

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