Nympho Domme Space

I’m feeling a bit schizophrenic in my Domme space right now. I’m realizing that I love sex way more than I ever even knew I could or did before. I have my hard limits, but barring that I am pretty open to try everything and anything and I bend so much and so easily to it all. Let me explain.

With my first “official” sub* who was a Dom himself I switched with him easily and also because I adored him I wanted to be vanilla a lot, and just “make love” to him. When that ended (for reasons I have not disclosed entirely here) he suggested I get more subs under my belt.

So on the quest to do so I’ve learned a lot. For starters I can go into Domme space very easily with anyone as long as that space is created for me. Trying to Domme a Dom/Bull or someone that does not really know, understand or allow subspace in his own head is not fun for me. It’s just not what I’m looking for long term. Now that I know myself better I see this clearly.

Secondly, because even though I have my own fetish predispositions I truly love ALL things related to sex, even things most people may not find sexual, sexy or appealing. I can get into it. I can and want to explore it; especially when I see the joy and ecstasy I bring out of the person I am with.

So for my second sub who favors sadism I went into my sadistic Domme. I relished tying his penis and balls up with rope. I fell right into my animal nature so easily. His pain threshold was at the perfect level where he loved it but it hurt. So it was just the reaction I needed and when he asked for more I found myself easily going deeper and deeper.

Then with my third sub I fell into a maternal loving Domme self. His young feminine sissy nature brought out this instinct to shelter, consume and also to direct. He made me a steak dinner and knelt at my feet while I sat in front of him and gently caressed his hair. Once he asked to eat my pussy I snuggled his head between my thighs, threw my leg over his head and pulled him into me, to my joyous delight, so easily that I giggled with pleasure. Then I wanted to run out and buy him sheets. Lol.

I did try out a Dom/Bull who insisted that he wanted to comply to me and then he didn’t or couldn’t. Either way I gave up because it was going to be much more work than I wanted to invest for, what was at that point, absolutely no return. I did sit on his face and he had a mastery for fingering my g-spot. Between both of those I was genuinely happy. I almost wondered if he had had his own vagina at one point because he was so very good at it. I could see then why some Domme’s would have a Bull. But…..

Really??

Do I need to try out more subs? I don’t think I do. I think I’ve grasped that my happiness comes from the pleasure of the space and not necessarily what I am doing. In fact, I gain so much pleasure from the space itself, from being given submission and displays of it, that it doesn’t even have to be sexual for me for me to draw extreme pleasure…it all makes me so very, truly happy. Just as the fact that a sub doesn’t have to have ample or even any experience as much as simply the right mindset.

So I don’t need to keep lifting the curtain. I’ve seen the show enough times now. Plus I’ve played in this space already just without having labeled it anything or knowing consciously what I was doing or wanting to do. So all this talk about being new is more semantics, exploration and growing into myself than actually being new to it.

I still feel like I want to see all there is to see and experience all kinds of different play…..but I would like to narrow it down to one special person to do that with, if possible. I guess we’ll see. Lol

Right now I’m still so much like a little kid given carte blanche in the candy store though. I’m in a bit of a frenzy, because I feel like I don’t want to exclude anything or anyone, except for the very few hard limits. All else is fair game. Right? Is it my fault I adore men so much? Is it my fault I enjoy being pleasured? If I could just find one man to concentrate on and give my full attention to. When that flip switches….when I feel that uncontrollable draw it will all be golden.

Until then I think I’ll slow down a bit. Maybe…..Just maybe. It’s just that I’m so thrilled to be here really…..is all I’m trying to say. To have found where I need and want to be sexually….to truly know, accept and be at peace with the fact that what I want wants me back**…….I’ve never really fully lived in that space until now and boy is it all the difference in the world. So fucking happy. Just so very happy to be here. I wish everyone such joy in life. Everyone! Why the hell not?

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*because I have inhabited this space since I first entered into my sexuality with the men that would allow me to do so.

**There’s a great Cheri Huber book title that reminds me of this. “That which you are seeking is seeking you”. I felt that intrinsically was true but…

Author: porngirl3

I have always enjoyed reading and writing. Maybe because I have always been on the quiet and reclusive side; which most people may not guess at first glance or if seeing me in a social setting, especially around people I am comfortable with but it’s also not something I have an issue with. I need solitude to recharge. Writing gives me the peace and time to renew myself...here that is offered to you for your enjoyment and pleasure as well. I hope. Lol

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