I have been sharing way too many personal and not very sexy stories lately.
So let’s go back to talking about sex for a moment.
When I was much younger my biggest fantasy was a gang bang. I never felt safe enough or courageous enough to make it happen*. I also always assumed that it would be about the men being pleasured and I wanted it to also be about my pleasure. My real pleasure, not just the male fantasy version. Plow, plow, plow. Looks good on film. Feels good for men. Does nothing for me. Lol. And I couldn’t figure out how I could get that to become a reality.
Last month I orgasmed to a fantasy of having my own harem of men. They were exclusively chaste to me; all of them and yet I enjoyed them and whoever else I chose whenever I chose it. I satisfied them so deeply that they loved it this way. On this day they all gathered around me as I laid on the bed. I was surrounded by 5 lovely creatures, all naked and hard. I was going to let them feast and they were ready to devour.
Each one had my name written on their penis in sharpie. And as they stroked themselves gently I could see my name bobbing up and down on their shafts. I was feeling generous, maybe I would let them pleasure each other once they were done pleasuring me. But we were just going to begin and I was ready for a full taste of them all, so I would decide that when I was done.
I didn’t get far into this fantasy before I orgasmed intensely. Lol. Twice.
Then yesterday’s fantasy was rather luscious as well, but since that involves a man that I actually know IRL I’ll keep it under wraps for now.
Do I ever want a real gang bang? I think not. Maybe had I been where I am now 20 years ago….sure. If I could live out the scenario above where it was about me. Well. Ummm. Yea. Ok. But now. Nah. Now reality has different plans for me. Plans I can’t wait to carry out. Plans that I can already see are going to be deeply fulfilling for me.
Meanwhile I’m still waiting for my new set-up to come in from China. It’s a strap on that has a built in vibrator/suction cup design for my clit. So maybe I can finally orgasm while giving a man pleasure this way. That is the most luscious thought ever for me. Far better than my own harem of men; I think. 😝
*and also because let’s face it I never wanted to seen and judged as a slut.