Atomic Blonde

I identify with the Charlize Theron character so much. Her strength, her erotic nature, her intelligence. There are a handful of movies I can watch over and over. This is definitely one of them. Plus the soundtrack is phenomenal.

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I feel myself growing into myself in leaps and bounds. I feel myself getting stronger. I feel myself calmer, more purposeful, more present. I can’t explain it….it vacillates still but I sense something strong coming my way. I am open. I am ready. I am here. Here!!

It doesn’t mean my life is perfect. It doesn’t mean I just didn’t eat McDonald’s French fries and follow it with way too sweet white wine (which I should not be drinking) and then chase that down with cake. Lol

Awww whatever. I ran today. I don’t care anymore. Lately I’ve realized that the more I do exactly what I want to do instead of what I think I should do (like eat vegetables…which I do actually love)…the happier I am.

And truly….isn’t inner peace and happiness worth it? I mean…yes… we should all measure ourselves. I’m not out hurting people. I’m not out to ruin the world. A little indulgence is ok.

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They say follow your passion and the money will follow. Right? I’ve seen that happen. I’ve even mentored people in this. I know for a fact it is true. Yet…..

I’ve been struggling. I have 3 businesses right now and I’m still barely holding my head above water. Fuck it!!

I’m doing it may way and either life will comply or I’ll burn it all down and leave it all behind. Who gives a fuck!

I’m so sick of worrying about it.

Author: porngirl3

I have always enjoyed reading and writing. Maybe because I have always been on the quiet and reclusive side; which most people may not guess at first glance or if seeing me in a social setting, especially around people I am comfortable with but it’s also not something I have an issue with. I need solitude to recharge. Writing gives me the peace and time to renew myself...here that is offered to you for your enjoyment and pleasure as well. I hope. Lol

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