When I think….
6 months ago I didn’t even know I was a Domme.
Don’t get me wrong.
I AM a Domme. I have always been a Domme. I just didn’t know the lifestyle existed. I didn’t know I had a title. I didn’t know I could live in this space always. I thought it was only sexualized and I thought it was only as I was allowed. I even at some points thought maybe there was something wrong with me because I didn’t see other women with my same desires. I didn’t see other women exercise this power.
I didn’t know this aspect of myself was “normal”. Not in the aspect of societal norms, but in the capacity that I am not only allowed to live in it…I am desired this way. I am celebrated!! There is a distinct difference there, and this celebration allows me to relish “my being” more than I ever knew possible. At this point I need no reminders. I need no applause. I need no props. I celebrate myself.
I am eating cake!!!
Maybe others in my same position would question “am I deserving?”
Nope. Not me! Lol
I know I am. I know what I want. I know my expectations are VALID and will be met.
Who wants cake?
Maybe at this point I should rename my blog “The Blossoming” or “The Awakening” or “She Came Alive” or “The Resurrection” or “The Making of a Domme”……
I do still like porn; only I like the one in my head so much more. Lol
“Born To Be Wild” – Steppenwolf
Clarification for those that still don’t comprehend the concept. 🙄
This power was always an undercurrent running inside of me. The pushback was always monumental though; especially in my youth and without guides, without representations of it I felt no choice but to subdue it as much as I could. Even so….it was always there. Always trying to exercise itself. Always wanting its dominion.
Now that I see I don’t need ever to exercise this force by force…..now I can settle back down into my loving self*. Does this make sense? This is so dynamic. Ever changing. Ever evolving. Such beauty.
I am deserving and in that there is this deep gratitude and graciousness and it is overwhelming me and….
I’m just so happy to be here. 💋❤️
*not to say I still don’t like playing hard. Te he he
Meghan Trainor – Me Too 😝