I have an obsessive/compulsive personality. I’m sure it’s quite apparent. And when I focus that attention on someone it takes over.
It isn’t healthy. I am not talking about mental health. I’m talking about reality. Those things don’t connect for me in this aspect.
When I give of myself. When I love. It has no boundaries. It is all consuming. It is life-altering.
I become so enmeshed with my beloved that there is no beginning and no end to where they begin and I end. There are no boundaries. No walls between us. This is as raw as you will ever be with someone.
And it is what I desperately need to feel.
All else is just pretend to me. All else is just play.
When you relinquish so many limits and are at your deepest vulnerability….. you can be catapulted straight into heaven or right into the depths of hell, almost instantaneously.
Either way you burn. Brighter than the sun or to the ground. You burn; and it is glorious and it is worth the risk.
To me it is; at least.
“You Shook Me” – Led Zeppelin