The munch today was heaven. To talk to other women who know and understand that headspace was a pleasure. Sheer joy!! Especially the older Domme’s with ample experience. They’ve had more hard play than I have but the need for full submission; the need to dominate, the need to drive that force is palpable….and it made my headspace swirl and bubble.
It was delectable to share that understanding, to relate so well to other women that way. To see their power within the dynamic. To feel my own power swell within the gathering. To accept beyond a single shadow of a doubt my place within this world.
I am home!
As an aside I FINALLY figured it out. What makes the Domme space come out in full fruition. It is a need for either to see pleasure from my actions or to see full unabashed submittance. It must be one or the other and of course preferably both. This is why trying to Domme a Dom is futile and feels like misery. They don’t understand the space. They don’t know the dance. I’ve had one try and it was not fun. They were like a fish out of water and had no visceral reactions to me. So I’ve learned to stay clear. Sex is sex and it’s fun but it is NOT the headspace I crave. Lol. To each her own.