Bitch 101

So hard to safeguard your heart sometimes. Fetlife is not helping the matter. I’m generally a very loving, sweet, genuine, open person but when you get inundated with guys saying exactly what you want to hear over and over just for the sake of sex…it gets ridiculous. I’m not getting callused as much as just starting to table my real persona for “Bitch Me”.

I’ve even disconnected my fetlife from here because just ugghhh. Men!! Instead of it being a platform for understanding me and seeing I’m a person (flesh and blood, heart and soul) just like them it just gives them more access and more ways to prey upon me. I don’t get it!! I am way too naive for this planet.

I think I’m a good judge of character generally and can steer clear of assholes quite well, but when you consider the ratio is A LOT higher in the underbelly it becomes drudgery weeding people out. I really don’t mind assholes and I don’t mind navigating the trenches. What I mind is the lack of honesty and transparency.

It’s a strange conundrum. Some people on there are at their most vulnerable and exposed; showing images and proclivities that no one outside of that realm knows about them and then there are the predators and conniving bastards. It’s a fascinating world but not exactly Maybury.

It still works for me though. Primarily because while on the outside I have a low key, even boring life*. I have my business, my children, my healthy lifestyle, my goals and ambitions. I don’t do much by the way of extravagances. The flipside is this deep need for sexual and emotional satisfaction and connection that skirts unhealthy extremism. I am ok with it and I know my partner will be ok with it. Once I find that person.

Navigating how to find that person; DIFFICULT. Ho hum. It’s ok. Eye on the prize. But no more niceties on my part. Ruthless dissection is necessary now….before I let any games commence. As I wait on my pedestal for the fun to begin.

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*boring isn’t quite the right word at all actually. Lol. But you know what I mean.

Author: porngirl3

I have always enjoyed reading and writing. Maybe because I have always been on the quiet and reclusive side; which most people may not guess at first glance or if seeing me in a social setting, especially around people I am comfortable with but it’s also not something I have an issue with. I need solitude to recharge. Writing gives me the peace and time to renew myself...here that is offered to you for your enjoyment and pleasure as well. I hope. Lol

5 thoughts on “Bitch 101”

  1. Same here. I haven’t logged into my Fet account for the best part of two weeks because of all the messages. That said we should actually be at least a little bit smug for the attention no matter how misguided it is. I talk to a submissive friend of mine about this. He’d be happy to get one message a week. We get everything. It’s a reminder how few of us there and how many of them there are that will never have to chance to be with women like us. We are diamonds, they are sand.

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    1. Yes. Thank you!

      You are right. I do know and I want to sympathize. I want to find gratitude there. I am trying. Really I am.

      I think maybe I need a break. It’s all a bit much. It’s a snowball effect. I get excited and I start to envision what I want and the possibilities and then I get frustrated and I lose hope. It’s an emotional roller coaster and it’s just a bit intense.

      How do you manage that?

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  2. Should I practice being smug? Contradicts my ethics in life. Gratitude first. Don’t get me wrong. In Domme form um…yes please. But. It’s a fun game. A beautiful game….how can I incorporate that I want to show gratitude for it? (Please answer if you know).

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  3. I go through phases where I kind of enjoy the attention and message people and then I just burn out and dump everyone because it gets silly when you’re on messaging systems for half your day and what’s the end result? The hope of course is that just one of them will stand out enough and be local enough to meet and hopefully something will come of it. I’d rather be having 2 or 3 really good meaningful conversations rather than 20 half baked ones with guys who just want to get off online. Fet like most dating style sites is just a meat market and I do lose interest pretty quickly. I’m continuing probably 10 long term conversations at the moment. A few have potential. Only one grabs my real attention. But one is all you need right?

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