Not Fighting the Tide

Sooooo….life can lead you in strange directions.

I’ve completely changed my mind. I will NOT be actively trying to find “the love of my life” any longer. After almost 2 years being divorced, being mostly abstinent that entire time and trying to find love in traditional avenues I’ve realized it’s not working.

Not only that but it is way too much pressure to put on myself and onto a man. Those expectations are way too high and it’s something that I legitimately want to be organic. Sooooo I’ve decided I’m going to actively look for a sub/slave instead. One because I want to see how the dynamic works when both parties are committed to it and two because I just want to play.

I’m so sick of this seriousness that always shrouds me. I’m sick of adulting all the God damn time. I want to have fun. Lots and lots of fun and I just don’t want that part of my life to feel like so much fucking work anymore.

Don’t get me wrong. I want to play hard and I will take my sexual satisfaction and dominant needs very seriously. I will also safeguard my sub/slaves needs very seriously. But otherwise. I’m switching to play mode.

Anyone want to play?

Author: porngirl3

I have always enjoyed reading and writing. Maybe because I have always been on the quiet and reclusive side; which most people may not guess at first glance or if seeing me in a social setting, especially around people I am comfortable with but it’s also not something I have an issue with. I need solitude to recharge. Writing gives me the peace and time to renew myself...here that is offered to you for your enjoyment and pleasure as well. I hope. Lol

2 thoughts on “Not Fighting the Tide”

  1. Congrats. It’s a beautiful realisation when it happens. I hope you find this a better way to manage relationships and expectations.

    I had my lightbulb moment last year and honestly, it’s the happiest I’ve ever been in relationships. Taking away all that pressure and determination to meet a certain goal, and just enjoying the journey makes everything so much easy on you.

    I hope it works for you. 🙂

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