So I’ve been asked why I put myself in the situation I did. Why don’t I sell the house? Why don’t I get a job? Ugghhh. I’ve been told “do this”, “do that”.
I recognize these are all suggestions meant to help me. But…much like the Domme thing. I feel, genuinely feel, with my entire being that this is where I’m meant to be.
I LOVE my business. I adore my clients.
Technically I only need 10 clients a week to support myself, my children, my mortgage, my lifestyle. I am after all a fairly thrifty person (mostly 😉). Ok. Well. I’m lowering my prices so I need 12.5 a week. That’s only 2.5 a day. (Yes I recognize people can’t be split like that. Lol. Don’t be silly. I’m just being accurate.)
I hope and had assumed the area could support me. I am hoping on a wing and a prayer that I was right and as difficult as this has been and all the sacrifices I am making; most notably my kids…I still feel like this is what I am meant to be doing.
Not just that but let’s look at this from a business point of view. I inadvertently put myself in a bind by not having a plan B for income past 6 months of my business inception. The adequate time for any start-up to be financially successful is generally understood to be 3 years. I’ve recently been told this more times than I can count. Ok. Fine. What’s done is done. If I sold the house right now, as it stands…I would maybe walk away with $2k. Meanwhile I invested $60k into my house and business combined not to mention over 2 years in planning, training and execution. So. Yea. All that would be for naught.
How many people can say they LITERALLY clean shit for a living and LOVE it?*
I love helping people. I believe in this therapy because it saved my life and I’ve seen firsthand the benefit to my clients and they are so grateful and I am so honored to be able to do that for them. To impart what I know, show them love and genuine concern and five of myself to them. So really 3 clients a day is enough. I just have to get there.
Lord help me get there. I’m going to work like a dog to make it happen and if it doesn’t…well…it wasn’t for lack of trying.
This is all I have. This is it. I ain’t got no more. Lol
*Not the shit part….don’t be weird. Ok. I apologize. I know some people are truly into skat. It’s not my thing, but again. It’s fine with me. Age and consent. That’s it. All else is fair game. Anyway…