Not a Fool…or am I?


It’s a love/hate thing

Hate when you’re breaking my heart

Hate being treated like shit, disrespected or unappreciated

Otherwise everything else is pretty fair to awesome

But ugghhhh. That ex…

He just won’t leave me alone

Two weeks ago he was professing his undying devotion

Right around the time he met Miss

Now he is supposedly so happy with her

He has started being utterly unbearable with me

I could care less about the girl

In fact I’m downright thrilled he finally will be off my jock

I am not one ounce jealous

What I am is angry that the dynamic has shifted and he’s being a turd now

But why… oh why did he have to send me a Square receipt to my email address this morning for coffee for two from a hipster downtown establishment. Who would go out of their way to do this?

I’m hoping it wasn’t him. I’m hoping it was a man that can’t live without me, a man that’s trying to spark my easily enraged jealous nature, but at the same time…do I?

What does that mean exactly? Ugghhh. I’m all for my love life being fun and sometimes fun means that it keeps you on the tips of your toes and leaves you breathless with anticipation or desire or even a tiny bit of angst. But it should never be this complicated.

Love should be the anchor on the drift of life. A sail to keep you going through turbulent winds. A beautiful oasis to fulfill your deepest desires. A haven for your heart; one you can trust and depend on no matter what.

That’s what love should be first and all else: sex, fun, laughter, camaraderie, companionship, pampering, etc is just the yummy toppings.

I guess some sleuthing is in order. The email included the last 4 of the credit card used. So now…the hunt begins. Hopefully it’s a fun mystery and not some useless tomfoolery. Who has time for that?

Author: porngirl3

I have always enjoyed reading and writing. Maybe because I have always been on the quiet and reclusive side; which most people may not guess at first glance or if seeing me in a social setting, especially around people I am comfortable with but it’s also not something I have an issue with. I need solitude to recharge. Writing gives me the peace and time to renew that is offered to you for your enjoyment and pleasure as well. I hope. Lol

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