I’m not sure which is worse. This driving myself crazy thinking about some love I haven’t found, have no idea what it looks like and even less idea how to get to…or the men vying for my attention.
I was at the gym today and there was this man; older, not bad looking. He was not my type per se. The thing is…I don’t date gym guys. Not because I don’t want to but because I don’t want to have to switch gyms. I’d rather just keep that as my sanctuary and not interact with anyone; girls included. I recognize that because I work from home and my life is not very social right now to begin with this really limits the possibilities of meeting someone.
It is a conundrum. I’m lonely. I’m wanting, but my life is in flux right now due to my finances. Doesn’t seem quite fair of me to take anyone on in my life with so much up in the air. I could very much use the oasis of someone to love, the intimacy of sex and the comfort of holding someone at night, but…
I hate sentences that start with but. Butt is altogether a much better word.
I can’t stop people from giving me attention; nor quite frankly do I want to. It’s a nice compliment. Especially when they make minor fools of themselves trying so very hard, like today. It’s cute. It’s genuinely endearing…maybe I should give a guy a break, even if it is at the gym. Maybe I shouldn’t worry so much about all the things I can’t seem to control.
Ho hum. Maybe.