Slow the Fuck Down


I went over a curve today with both kiddo’s in the car. We all laughed, and no one was around to see but still.


I’m running at a frantic pace to try to “beat the clock”. I never liked stressful games. Chess is more my speed and not the timed kind; the kind you play leisurely.

Paul told me if he was a girl he would drive like me. I was just starting to drive and I can’t say I’ve gotten too much better, more defensive, slow and cautious. It’s not like I get in accidents, tailgate, get tickets, run over anyone or anything like that. I think all people drive a bit frantic when they are stressed, in any aspect*…anyway…add to the stress that…

of course I am on a cleanse as well; because I needed more fuel for the fire. Lol

It’s all rather comical really. I don’t know whether to laugh or cry or both. I’ll just shake my head in disbelief.

I’m loving my business. I am gaining clientele and great networks at a clip now, but not quite where I need it to be…yet.

I’m moving forward. Just moving forward but I have soooo many stakes in the fire and so many tasks to complete and so much to keep up on.

I was laughing with the older woman at the checkout today. She was telling me about the cute fluffy kitty she has and how that was enough for her and I was telling her about my 3 kids, 2 cats and a dog and telling her it was sheer craziness and that even through all this I can see that one day I will miss this and so

I embrace this right now…arms wide open with my heart on my sleeve bleeding love. I try to appreciate what I have while I have it. I really do.

I’ve just got one life here. I’m just trying to use it wisely. I never said I was particularly good at this though. In the Chose Your Adventure books I often died…I still loved reading them. lol.

I think I’ve learned enough lessons to be ok though, or maybe I haven’t. I’m lucky enough to be surrounded by angels either way. 🙏🏽❤️


*…I would be crazy enough to seriously have been a race car driver given the chance

Author: porngirl3

I have always enjoyed reading and writing. Maybe because I have always been on the quiet and reclusive side; which most people may not guess at first glance or if seeing me in a social setting, especially around people I am comfortable with but it’s also not something I have an issue with. I need solitude to recharge. Writing gives me the peace and time to renew that is offered to you for your enjoyment and pleasure as well. I hope. Lol

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