I’m the happiest I have ever been in my entire life. This is truly monumental. If you knew me you’d absolutely agree and even hold a parade to mark this impressive feat. Jk. No, no. Hold your applause. Please! I insist. The parade can come later. 😉 lol
Truly though. I feel blessed beyond belief and I couldn’t be happier with who I am as a person and what my life is like on many levels. Now if my finances would fall in line and my relationship status would change to “not available” things would be absolutely phenomenal. I recognize though that of these two faltering areas one is detrimental and one is optional. Except to me both truly are necessary, albeit one has much more pressing immediacy than the other.
But I do so very much miss sex.
Can you be addicted to something you don’t indulge in? I suppose that’s what recovering addicts live with on a daily basis. If so, then I am very much addicted to sex. I absolutely need it. Like water, air, food, shelter. Frankly, I’d rate it above clothes if it didn’t get so cold all the time here.
Sex is absolutely vital to me. It gives me comfort, touch, emotional satisfaction, stress release, passion, pleasure, excitement, fun and happiness. How many things do you know of that (theoretically) don’t cost a penny and provide so many check marks? Now granted all these things only come if A) I really want to have sex with this person and/or B) I really love this person. Otherwise sex with just anyone may only fill one or two of the boxes but definitely not all.
So I guess I’m admitting that there has to be a connection on some level. I mean I’ve once heard of someone having an awesome one night stand and I want to believe it, but chances are that at least one person in that party was faking it a little. I’m theorizing this of course and since I’ve never had it actually happen to me I can’t say for sure. Anyone I ever had really good sex with we kept going with it. Maybe not into a “relationship”, but we didn’t cut it at just one night.
Ho hum. Thinking about sex only makes me want it even more. I suppose they do have sex addiction meetings. I wonder how many people hook up for sex at them. That’s intriguing. I’d definitely go check that out if that were the case. Not to partake of course but to see the action behind the scenes of the main storyline. Often times those are far more entertaining. Lol
I probably sound like some big pervy voyeur but truthfully I’ve just graduated from device based pornography to wanting to see the drama of human sexuality play out in real life. Of course it isn’t in the comfort of wherever I happen to be and there isn’t as much anonymity to it. So there is that. But alas everything has its pluses and minuses. Right?