One of my most heinous conspiracy theories involves the Catholic Church. I hate to even say it because I know it will offend some people. (Long aside here.*)
So how I see the Catholic Church is, it’s either the worst occult and potentially satanic, worse than the supposed Illuminati type organizations or it and its offsprings have indoctrinated so many people (some by force even) that they themselves can’t move the hive mentality pendulum towards progression any faster than this, assuming they even want to. Which I’m not even sure about. People really seem to love the status quo; even if it’s oppressive, unjust and illogical.
But then I think of how the churches hid all that pedophilia and how priests got away with it, priests that walk free to this day and never served any time. And I think of how they shield themselves even now through the hypocrisy of not admitting homosexuality within their own ranks. And don’t get me started on their treatment of women, I’ve gone through this on many posts.
Honestly, I just don’t get religion. The idea of it yes. Theoretically great: community, service and support with devotion to a higher power.
Although I did contemplate starting my own religion yesterday. I’d call it The Church of Sex. This church would center around community for people wanting to connect to their souls and bodies. Enjoying the life we get to live on this tangible level while also enjoying the spiritual aspect of knowing our own soul and understanding ourselves and our purpose and our connection to the Divine.
It would go far beyond sex. Body awareness, masturbation, hands on couples sexual therapy, hug therapy, teaching children about body autonomy, teaching teenagers about cohersion vs consent vs actual desire and masturbation, safe sex, STD’s, and their own bodies functions and normal drives.
The church would also teach tantric sex. And if I could get away with it even a form of prostitution that would be free for church members. Make it like Scientology where there are levels and the higher you go the more perks you get, and demonstrating more devotion to your own spiritual growth as well as the church. It’s a really fun idea.
Oh…..I crack myself up sometimes. Guess everyone wants to rule the world. At least our own little worlds.
So I was thinking of how to possibly help pedophiles who haven’t entered the system but want and need help.
I think the way to help them would be to treat it like other addictions. You take them to a less potent drug and wean them off, while also providing continual support.
Add the way you wean people off porn. You let them enjoy it still but slowly incorporate a real person and real acts, until you can pull them away willingly, and this forms a new connection to sex or reinforces an existing one so it dominates the less desired sexual preference.
So that they develop an inclination for that instead. Of course using role playing as the substitute or something else more benign when you let them play out their fantasies. Not actually letting them indulge in real acts.
Then also have 12 step programs available. Except that ideally they should develop friendships outside of other pedophiles. IMO that would probably be best. Or like jail they may come out just making better and deeper connections than when they went in with people that may lead them back to it.
I don’t know, except we need something to keep them from doing and ideally even wanting to engage in pedophilia. By changing those predominant sexual desires to less dangerous ones and maybe even blocking it out completely. I think it’s possible because some can abstain now and I truly think spirituality can help all causes. I’d be happy to add that to the church. Because someone has to help these people.
I imagine a lot of these people would change their desires if they could. Of course not all. Some are pedophiles of opportunity. And some are just full on unencumbered by any moral or legal dilemma.
But I’d like to think that if we tried as a society to actually help and didn’t just say “don’t do it” and send them off to jail, if and when they ever get caught we would actually have some success at stemming the pain they can cause on society.
Because pedophilia is essentially like all other illegal activity. Police only catch the very tip of the iceberg. And if we could help even one child why wouldn’t we? If we can help one person not be a potential abuser, why wouldn’t we? And we know children of trauma can go on to create lives of trauma and even commit horrible acts themselves so why wouldn’t we want to help them cope and abstain?
I then wonder if I myself fall very easily into being the victim to trauma because I’m an empath or because that’s my subconscious (childhood induced) wheelhouse or that I’m simply very susceptible to manipulation; read: gullible, naive, believing and seeing the best in people.
And I wonder if I was a man or severely ego driven to gratify myself at someone else’s expense if my own trauma would have led me to be a perpetrator or a potential perpetrator.
Do all human beings have the capacity to be both angels and devil’s? I dare say we all do. It’s just a matter of degrees I guess and you just never know.
Don’t we all have the potential human capacity to be Jesus or Hitler? And yet to think we squander our lives away not even knowing who we truly are and what we are truly capable of? Not knowing who we want to truly be? Not embracing what makes us uniquely us and letting our own beautiful, multi-faceted flags fly.
I’m not trying to normalize anything here. I’ll gladly take pot shots at anyone, even myself. We can’t go around taking ourselves so seriously all the time. I say we all smoke some weed and chill out and figure this shit out. So we can make the world an actual viable place to live these short little existences.
In order to do that we must support our weakest links. I learned that in Catholic school in 2nd grade. Maybe we all need to go back to kindergarten again.
*And here is where I understand what it is to believe in religion and value it as a deep part of yourself but I firmly believe that it still needs to be questioned. In fact, that’s the most important aspect of spirituality; finding your own soul and nurturing it in the way it needs, in order to grow.
And one only does that through reflection, acceptance and letting go of the things that hold one back as a person on a spiritual quest. That’s what religion should be. To me I guess. Helping on that inner quest to answer our own questions and find real peace and happiness within ourselves based on looking at who we really are and the ripples we produce in this world then making it a better place for everyone, not just ourselves.
Written last night while super stoned. Lol. Good times. A bit all over the place.